Post College Disillusionment

It has been two years since I graduated college and I’m not even close to where I thought I would be right now. I thought I would be close to finishing a two year contract at a small town news station moving on to the next step in my career. I never thought it would take me almost a year to find a “big girl job.” But when I finally did, that job ended up being an administrative role at a government communications department, which is pretty much the complete opposite of what I thought I would get into.

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Class of 2014. Go Bulls!

I’m completely thankful that I ended up there though, we have one of the best communications departments in the state of Florida. We also have our own local public access station, where most of our programming is filmed, edited, and produced in house. It’s not hard hitting news but it’s story telling and that’s ultimately why I wanted to get into broadcasting in the first place. I’m lucky enough that they know what I want to do with my career, so I get a good amount of projects on the television side which helps reinforce my future career goals.

Even with this great opportunity I felt lost and I realized I wasn’t the only one my age going through the same thing. A lot of people who are ages 22 to 25 are either graduating college or have been out of school for a few years. For the first time you’re truly out on your own, paying your own bills, scheduling your own appointments, and so on. It’s one of the weirdest times in a persons life because 1. You’re basically pushed out into the real world and told by the more grown up adults “Good luck! See ya, wouldn’t want to be ya!” and 2. You actually have to figure out how to be like those more grown up adults mostly through trial and error. Then next thing  you know it you have to start paying off your student loans and your bank account ceases to exist as we know it.

 

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I read this article about how 23 is the hardest year of your life, and let me tell you so far 23 was the worst year of my life. I turned 24 almost five months ago and I’m still recovering from the mess that was being 23. One of the few bright spots was the fact that me and my roommates became best friends and the fact that we still talk everyday even though we all live in different places now. That aside 23 was a hard year to get through and 24 is slightly easier but there’s still a bunch of things you have to go through before you find your place in the world. Basically put it’s life and it’s hard but it can also be fun once you realize that it’s not permanent. You will become successful, you will figure out what you want in life, and you will find love or a bunch of cats if that’s what you want (I’m not here to judge, I myself want a husband, 5 dogs, and a cat). Basically one day you’ll look back and realize that the struggle was real but the struggle was there to help you appreciate your future success. Now I don’t know for sure because like I said I’m still living the struggle, but Tina Fey and Oprah were struggling at my age and now look at where they are. Looking at examples like that gives me hope.

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I might not be exactly where I thought I was going to be right now but ultimatley I know it’s okay to struggle, I know it’s okay to feel lost, and I also know it’s okay to have hope that every experience that I go through is ultimately getting me to where I want to be in life. And with some hard work and motivation I’m hoping I’ll get to where I want to be, even if I don’t know for sure what that is just yet.